The Spirit of Opression

Hello everyone. Chris Here. Ahhh..... yeah I just suffered through about a weeks worth of severe depression. I don't know if that is exactly what it is called but that is what I am going to call it. I don't know exactly how obtained it - maybe from sleep deprivation ( I stayed up for 36 hours playing guitar for about 14 of those hours with my friend Josh). I couldn't do anything though. Play my guitar, hang out with friends, work, not even the Simpsons were funny. You know you are not yourself when homer can't make you laugh. Everything seemed so gloomy and distant. If i can describe it in anyway it would be like watching Donnie Darko over and over again withought any mobile capabilities to push stop or leave the room. Or that the spirit of opression was haunting my every move. I could't take Joy in any aspect of my life no matter how hard I tried. Even the sun felt fake and its rays insecure. Now I truly can appreciate the smashing pumpkins title Melon Collie and the infinite sadness. A week of sadness is enough for me though. If my episode lasted any longer I seriously don't know what i would have done. Either kill myself or begin researching on bears so I could hybernate. Anyway, I am getting better now -I still don't feel like myself but my gloom is beginning to erode. Geez. Once I fully recover I think it will make me apreciate life that much more. Thanks. Godspeed.